Her nostrils and throat burned.
Satsi gagged and darted backwards, arm covering her mouth and nose as her eyes welled and watered. Her mind raced, and she would have spat a curse if she could have. Was the gas a paralytic, a nerve toxin? Blood poison? Something to turn her lungs to acid? Kark, kark, KARK!
As she watched, crouched there on the mats, Rhylance's beaten and bloody figure warped, nose and cheekbones melting as if to slough off, eyes rolling back and falling out of their sockets, snapped nerves dangling out the gaping holes.
And they regrew, became familiar, so familiar her heart stuttered then started up again, racing so hard it would surely explode out of its thin, bony cage from the strain. So familiar her breath caught and froze and a ringing rose in her ears and she couldn't breathe Tall, imposing, and with a gaze that could cut glass, features strong and pronounced but aristocratic in their shape. Deathly pale skin, silky mane of pure white hair, red eyes and his cybernetic weaves and nodes adorning him like cloak and crown.
It was the face of her nightmares. Of her past. It was the face that had almost made her whole, had almost fit but had not. A piece that had had to break her and fray her and twist her before it could fit in the wounds it made. She had not been meant for him. He had not been Heart.
But he had been a heart, and when he had cut her open and ripped her ribcage gaping wide, she had listened to the wet, sick cracks and let him nest in her breast like a worm, like a tumor. She had let him eat her alive. Because he was pain and horror, but had he smiled at her. And she'd forgotten so many things.
It was the face of the man that beat her baby out of her, that ripped out her spine and replaced it with his strings, that filled her body with his and with chemicals and crystals until she was as perfectly posable and pretty as an embalmed corpse ready and willing for him to use. It was the face of the man that took and took and took no matter how hard she fought or screamed or begged no no no.
Jashin.
And it wasn't even his presence that broke her, no; it was the toddler he held by one hand, wobbling next to him on her little, boo-boo covered legs with a bandage on her knee and a butterfly dress tied with a bow. It was Satsi's little girl, her Samantha, with her raisin-squinty eyes and bread roll arms and big, two-toothed smile.
He had her goddamn daughter.
"My Lord," she croaked, not out of anything willful but out of habit so burned into her that no amount of distance or hatred or healing was likely to ever expunge it. Then, stronger, words she meant with every piece of her she had: "Get away from her, you sonuvabitch."
But she knew better, she knew better. He was dead. He was dead. He was dead, dead, dead, she'd ripped him apart herself. Sammy was fine this time, she was, he didn't have her, she was home, she was with Uji. She was with Uji. Uji. Her Uji. He was okay. Sammy was okay.
"Not real, not real," Satsi muttered, chanted, but it didn't go away. That wasn't new, though; her nightmares never went away. He was always there, out of the corner of her eye, just out of sight but forever stalking — red eyes and silver hair and sibilant smile.
She would never be without him inside of her because he'd made her. She could never get away.
Satsi dug her nails into her scalp, fisting chunks of hair between her fingers, and pulled. Small tangles of strands riiiipped free, taking spots of skin and smatters of blood with them. She tossed them aside and scratched at the raw areas left, digging her nails in until she felt the catch of skin dragging and then burrowing deeper, scratching, scratching. The pain was so sharp and bright, right at the surface, that it made her nerves all scream and her muscles lock, and she kept scratching, until her fingertips grew sticky and she felt a dribble of dampness behind her ear.
The pain was bright and sharp and clean. It was here. It was now. It was real, and it was her choice.
He wasn't real. It wasn't real.
She hissed in a breath, clasping her skull, and glared at Rhylance-turned-phantom with tears wet on her cheeks.
It wasn't real. And there were incongruities too. He opened his mouth, and a voice mostly Rhylance's came out, mildly distorted, like talking underwater. The figure said, "Yes, it's me, my sweet Satsi. Come. Bow to me. Bow to your lord." It was an attempt, but it was all wrong. Jashin didn't sound like that, didn't speak like that, didn't call her that.
She thought: it's Rhylance, and you're on Arx. Jashin is dead.
She thought: Sammy's safe. We read a holo about tooka kittens and a leaf together this morning.
She thought: be sure anyway. Shoot him. Shoot him frakking dead. Headshot, headshot, center mass.
She thought: if Sammy is not with him and he is dead then it's just you and the Chiss and you did not come here to kill him, you came for collection.
It was just a hallucinogen, maybe something stimulating to jack up her heart rate and pump her full of more adrenaline than she'd know what to do with; but she'd had trips like it and worse. She was just seeing what her brain decided to spit up, all soaked in its own fight-run-go cocktail. She had to focus. It wasn't the visions she was fighting, it was the drugs pumping through her system and frakking up her body. Rhylance was right there, Rhylance, blaster still pointed at her, smartly keeping his distance.
"You're not him," she rasped, a laugh that couldn't quite squeeze past the constricted folds of her throat. "You're playin' dress up at bein' a monster, kid. You don't know what real monsters are. You don't know fear, you little karker."
"You are again mistaken, Tameike. But, it was worth a trial. And worth the observations. Tell me, what are you experiencing? What is it you so fear? Are you seeing visual hallucinations? Auditory? Any tactile sensations? Perhaps sense memory or phantom pains?"
A thousand responses jumped to her tongue, but she was too furious to speak anymore. All she could think was, how frakking dare he?
Satsi's limbs had stopped shaking, and the stillness they carried then was the tension of a coiled spring about to let go. She felt her face broaden into what couldn't possibly look like a friendly smile, curled her fists, and launched herself at the Chiss with an anger so bright it felt almost like joy.
The blaster went off, plasma screaming, but even when she felt the stings she didn't care; her body and his tangled, bowling over and writhing on the ground as she tried to get her arms around him. The Chiss was damn slippery, though, even injured, twisting and pinching at her shoulder nerves to make one arm go numb for a second when she got it around him. He kicked away, trying to scramble for the entrance, and she caught his ankle, yanking him back, crawling over top of him.
Satsi shook sensation back into both limbs and straddled the other Consul even as his battered arm lifted his pistol again. She lunged, trying to knock it out of his hands, and struggled to pin him fully even as he writhed and yanked out of her grip, clutching the weapon for dear life.
Snarling, Satsi reached for her belt instead of for his flailing hands, hefting a grenade. She activated the thermal detonator and held it tightly in hand for him to see, clinging to his chest like a parasite, grip hard enough to purple his indigo skin. The device beeped away.
"What are you doing with that?" Rhylance asked, sounding strained for control.
"Burning this motherfrakker to the ground."
"There are no explosions permitted here," snapped the Chiss. His gun hand wavered.
"Because we both care so much about the rules!" Her laugh bordered on hysterical, and she was only effecting half of it. She felt loose in her skin, like something in her spine had snapped free and now she was slipping and grinding inside her own body, just a bit out of place, just a bit unhinged.
It'd been awhile.
"You will kill us both! Or the least, cripple us both and draw the ire of the peacekeepers."
"So?" Satsi practically sang, cackling again, genuine. She was hanging by a precious thread. Such a little tiny thread. Sammy didn't need her to have all of her fingers, now did she? "Is that supposed to stop me?! Oh, Doc, you're cute! Oh, oh, oh, oh don'tchya know? I'm a pretty little psycho!"
Rhylance was looking sufficiently perturbed by now. Good. He should have gotten the memo from Lucine anyway. Satsi wasn't frakking okay. The monster in her was caged by frail and fragile bars, by a little girl, and he'd gone and blown the door open.
The grenade began ticking more rapidly, warning of impending doom.
"Stop it, or I will," spat the Chiss, and Satsi laughed at him.
"You can't. Keyed to user."
"Stop it!"
"No."
"Tameike, this is foolish."
"DON'T CARE, PRETTY EYES."
The doctor muttered something about some dude and his theories on the speed of light before swearing, "What do you want?"
"I want you to know how bad you frakked up," cooed the Human, leaning in close. She kissed him full on, open-mouthed and filthy, tongue pressing in deep before he could even swallow a breath. Words whispered again his lips after a long moment of disgust, "I want you to really, really know it."
"I concede."
"Do you really?"
"Yes!"
He sounded sincerely panicked, eyes fixated on the bomb. Satsi considered him. Panting, bloody, pale and sweaty. Blown pupils, shudders. Staring at the bomb. He believed her. She smiled, forced herself to breathe, to back away from the ledge, and deactivated the grenade, silencing it.
His eyes flickered downward.
Something slid into her side. It was just a poke, firm but not uncomfortable. She blinked in confusion and glanced down. Trembling blue fingers were knotted almost to white around a scalpel handle, the blade lodged at an angle inside her. The scientist's normally deathly still hand shook with fatigue, hurt, and maybe even real terror, jostling the knife.
And then the pain came.
The wickedly sharp blade ground cold against bone and metal where her ribs had been replaced. She gasped shallowly, dropped what she held, grabbed for his wrist. The pain was terribly icy, spearing through her and radiating through her chest, but she growled and pulled. In one fierce heave, the woman forced the doctor's arm back with a sick, sharp snap of cracking bone and the slow rasp of peeling cartilage, wrenching the scalpel out of her. Blood splattered the mats once more, and Rhylance screamed, the wail only worsening when Satsi twisted, rotating his forearm and grinding together the snapped ends of his elbow joint.
"What's that called anyway, huh, Doctor? This bit here, them bones. They got fancy names, right?" She pressed in again to emphasize her meaning, and saw his red eyes roll back. Pity. She hadn't wanted him to black out for this. "Aww, what, don't like being the one asked questions? You just good for digging in people's' heads and dissectin' them, huh? Well not me, karker. And not Lucine, or anybody under my call ever again."
The Chiss seemed to resurface when she shook him, agony too much to ignore but too much for lucidity. His gaze was muzzy as he looked back at her, face twisted, words cracked. "S-stop," he hissed.
Satsi's fingers were getting cold. He might not have actually severed some important artery to her heart like he wanted to, but he'd nicked something. Her front was slick with blood. She needed to...do something. Take care of it, probably. Go home. See her family.
But Shadows, was it hard to focus on that right now. Especially when she could just hurt this frakker some more.
The woman shook herself, slumped, tried to cover it up as intentional by muttering into the Chiss' ear. "Alright, let's say you've learned real good now...if you get bored over on your corner, sugah, come find me. I was serious when I called for a doctor. We're a... Little short as of late. I could use somebody with a little more sanity and a lot fewer morals heading our surgical wing."
She dragged herself upright and smiled, all teeth, like a vornskr with its jaw unhinged.
Then, she dropped him flat to enjoy passing out, tottered to her feet, and staggered a few feet towards the exit before collapsing herself.
Positive Takeaways
Setting up a fight between a combat oriented character and a non-combat oriented character can be challenging. The combat center venue also provides a temptation to just set up a "I'm here, you're here, let's spar" type match. You presented a creative set up for the match that engaged the reader and was natural to both characters which is no small feat. Normally using roughly 1000 words to set up a confrontation would be a pacing problem but the medical emergency scenario provided enough action to keep the reader interested.
Can Be Improved
This is not a syntax error but just as a comment for future matches, watch your word choice. Varied word choice is a good thing and you employed descriptive language masterfully throughout this post. However, the use of pantomine in this sentence is an example of where getting too creative with word usage can muddle the clarity of the passage. It threw me out of reading for a moment while I pulled up a dictionary and talked with the rest of the staff. The usage is technically correct but probably not the optimal word choice.
While I'm on the subject of clarity, I will point out that you used a lot of technical medical terminology in this post but you did it in such a way that I, as the reader, always knew what you were talking about from context.