Her eyes burned.
The feeling was hollow and hungry, like the burnt-out shell of a conflagrated corpse. It was not a sensation she was accustomed to, so resistant was her sylvan frame to the natural calamities of time and rigor. She could not recall if she had ever felt such an altogether all-consuming emptiness before. She could not recall many things: when last she had slept, what rest felt like, what feeling was at all.
She couldn't feel anything.
She couldn't feel anything without him.
Her eyes burned, but her sap-like tears were long dried up, like all her words, turned to ash on her oaken tongue. Water sluiced down her timber body in sheets, smaller rivulets running through the cracks in her bark skin. She stood in the deluge and stared, unblinking, almost unseeing, out at the expanse of glint and gloom before her, platforms of interconnected metal capped in spires of pure white set like islands over the dark sea below.
She stared at the lone, unflinching figure that weathered the maelstrom with her, a pale reflection in the night. A halo of wild, white hair whipped around the other woman’s head, tangled into thick, wet ropes that fell like lashes. Her face was unmasked and unsmiling, cold and impassively serene as carved stone, benevolence left in its curves only by the will of chiseled birth, not by any warmth from within. She wore robes of white and gilt, soaked nearly into transparency and clinging to her shivering frame.
The eyeless Seer stopped some few feet before the listless Vanguard, standing in too-deep silence. The sky rent itself apart and screeched around them, the ocean roiling, but still they stood, staring at one another in their own fashions, one sightless, one unseeing.
Lightning struck a rod close by, so close that its heat and light sucked all noise and color away, leaving them in a perfect white void for a fraction of a heartbeat.
The boom of thunder that followed was too loud and deep for the Neti’s auditory canals to process. She felt it more than heard it, rumbling in her chest and vibrating her sap in her veins.
She felt it…
“Vorsa,” the other woman said, flat and smooth as glass.
Did she have a voice? She searched for it, in her throat, her stomach and chest. “Atyiru,” Vorsa replied gratingly, her wooden lips struggling to form the word.
The Miraluka’s head dipped forward at the mention of her name, a flash of white in her dark face hinting at bared teeth.
“Why?” the Arconan Consul’s voice was brittle, just shy of broken — or perhaps shattered already.
“Because your people killed him,” Vorsa answered without thought, the phrase long having slept on her still tongue.
“They weren’t ordered to. I specifically forbade it.”
“And so it is all the more your fault.”
“Then why him?” Atyiru cried over the roar of the torrential gale. “If it’s my fault that Turel died, why did Marick have to die too?”
Vorsa looked away, off into the impenetrable dark of the clouds above. “Because you failed.”
“So it was deliberate?”
The Neti Councillor looked back at her former ally. “I gave the order. Your sin was a failing of command. Mine was one of weakness.”
The Miraluka gave a howl of anguish, tearing at her own hair. “WHY COULDN’T YOU HAVE JUST KILLED ME?!” she shouted. “WHY DID YOU HAVE TO HURT HIM?”
Her hands dropped from her red-stained silver tresses to the blade at her belt. She brandished it, a spear of celeste piercing the gloom. ”Say something, Vorsa!”
Vorsa just stared.
The shape of the world was lost to her, to the numbness. She couldn't find the Light anymore, couldn't feel its pale embrace or its purifying fury. She couldn't taste the spring air rolling cold off the mountain peaks of Menat Ombo, or bask in the sun warming her roots. She couldn't lull her heartbeat to the rhythm of the world around her, her breathing to the currents of the Living Force that flowed in everything and everyone.
Her heart was gone. Her lungs, her eyes, gone. Her faith, her dreams, her loyalty and will, gone, gone, gone.
It was all still there, but without him, it was empty.
There was nothing for her left. Nothing left of her.
But there was this.
This, buried deep, deep in her sepulchral chest, but still there. Rage. Sorrow. Pain so vast and unspeakable, fury so immense that it turned white and blank. There was this woman before her, responsible, no matter how indirectly, for the murder of the man she loved. This woman whom she had, in turn, wounded.
It had brought her this far, to this rain-drenched platform. It had lifted her limbs like puppet strings, danced her body across the stage of the Galaxy to here and now, under spotlights cast in lightning.
Carry all as one, she had always told her beloved apprentice. It was a sentiment she and Atyiru had shared, once, in the fragile and joyous days following their two Clans’ clemency.
When you can't walk, you crawl.
Vorsa blinked, slowly, the oaken lid of her left eye, so long unmoving, creaking under its shell of stiff moss. She lifted her hand, stiff and unsure, as if a statue awakening from sleep. Looking at the rain-drenched woman across from her, brilliant in her mourning, she found the strength to reach for her belt and take up her blade.
As the Neti watched, Atyiru's whole frame seemed to tremble and crack at its seams, a dormant mountain splitting itself apart, bleeding flame and ash. The Miraluka deliberately brandished her saber, shaking hands finally stilling on the hilt as she slid one foot behind her, turning. A claw of lightning flashed directly overhead, and in its tumultuous radiance, Vorsa saw Atyiru bleached in white, a phantom given form by the ties of life that she could not let go.
When you can't crawl...
A feral, caterwauling sound tore into the thunder-deafened darkness, and Vorsa dimly realized it was her own scream of agony, of rage and desperation, her opponent's fearsome cry echoing in response.
Their lightsabers burned through their black existence, lights in the Void, beats to their hearts, and they charged each other in wild abandon.
Bloody amber and crystalline blue met, plasma crying and screaming, giving voice to the anguish of their wielders. The two grieving women danced, blades crashing together in fulminations of light and heat, so much like the lightning around them. Vorsa lunged forward, her whole body swaying into the swing, and Atyiru pirouetted to meet her on rain-swept feet.
"'Carry all as one?' What is that even supposed to mean, Master?" Turel had asked, years ago.
And she'd answered, "When you can't walk, Apprentice, you crawl. When you can't crawl..."
They carried each other, blades dancing, deep into the storm and the night.
I know folks like comments in every post, but I'll comment on what you did in V'yr's post since it played out there.
Nicely done..!!