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Kirletians...my Dark Ones.. (please read all of it)

Well my Brothers & Sisters, there comes a time in one's career when one must admit defeat and step aside for a new era/generation to carry on the good work. Though i sit here and dwell on what could be, what could've been & what should be, all i can think about is the people that i will be leaving behind. The faces that i have seen, the people i have helped along the way, the people i have lost along the way, the friends i have made (i feel i can call you friends now...hehe), the friends i have lost along the way. Its never an easy thing to do, and this is the secound time i have had to do it in my career in the EH/DB. When i stepped down in the Tiecorps position as Commodore of the ISDII Grey Wolf, my farewell speach apparently brought tears to some people's eyes. Well...its not my intention here, but i will, as always, speak from the heart, i don't intend on cutting any corners here folks.

Here we go......

For 3 long years i have been in the DB, 95% of that time as a member of Clan Satal Keto in Kirleta. 2 yrs of that time as Kirleta's Qua. I have seen people come and go, seen the best and worst of peoples personalities, overcome adversity, overcome doubt and rumour and come out on top. Lead the House to an amazing result in the recent GJW. One result that i am very very very proud of and to have been a part of! All of you should go down in CSK history for what you have done and helped me do. In my eyes, your all winners anyway. Though nobody will admit it, or give you credit for it, i say your all winners because we did what no other Kirleta Qua/Aed team ever did with Kirleta, we got the best out of you lot and it showed too :)

But 3yrs with only 3 weeks leave is a longtime not to have a break. And even though it pains me, i feel that old Azzy, who had his 28th Birthday 3 days ago now needs a break and a long one. Ironic that today is my Mothers birthday that i announce this.

But my passing in the night of time should be a happy one. I have stayed long enough to see Kirleta finaly find herself again, to have found the talent that is now in the house again, and this is the winning team now!! Whether i am part of it or not, the team to turn the tide in the Obelisk order is settled in this fine and proud house, its now up to you guys to carry it on and make more history. And thats what you are gonna do. I also find myself sitting here and thinking 'what did i do that was so great if anything?', did i give people hope? Did i give them 100% attention and advice? Have i given them what they deserve? Have i helped someone to develop more skills? - I cannot answer those questions, not here not now. The only thing that springs to mind is that i showed the house a new angle, that of comp creation teams, skinners, mappers, recruiters, these are the essential elements not only of every house, but of the Jedi Knight gaming world itself. If you have all ingredients for a cake, the cake will turn out great. Though my work is not done yet, and Kirleta still has that #1 slot to get, i go away from you all now knowing that this is the team to do it, and that you will do, you only need the time to prove that you can do it!!! AND YOU WILL!

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The special mentions section .......

DA Drako ~ You've helped me along the way, given me advice, listened to me both on mIRC, via mail and in real life on the phone or in person. I thankyou for giving me the time to hear me out, and for also giving me the chance at being a Qua. Though in the past you've made a few boobs (as we all do), i hold nothing against you (you know what i am talking about), we all make mistakes. But you were a great Consul and a fine leader, one that everyone should espire to be like in this clan! Good luck for the future Oldsta ;) Pop down anytime if your passing or text/phone sometime ;)

SWL Darky (Gordy locks) ~ LOL i had to throw my personal nickname in for you there one last time ;) We've had long chats, arguments, dissagrements, shared thoughts and idea's as i have with Oldie, but your a damn fine leader also and was a grest PCON. I know that you will look after the clan aswell as anyone that has come before you. You should know in your heart that you can do this, never doubt yourself dude, you can do it! Be positive always....it will turn out ok in the end :) Even though you doubt it sometimes.......YES....i am your friend and always be, take care of yourself mate ;))

OBL Waza ~ When the day came they gave me Qua, only one name stood out from the rest, yours. We were the two most active members of the House when Darkheart stepped down. And i made the right choice in choosing you as my right hand man. You have never let me down, we have, over the years, coverd eachother well, but i feel you have always wanted something from me that i could never give you. I have always done my best for you and the House Waz, please don't ever think that i have not done so. Your a great bloke, a good listener and friend. I know you have come to me with problems in the past, both clan issues and real life ones, i don't know if i have ever helped you out at all, but i did my best for you :) If i could....i'd give you a Golden Lightsaber, because you deserve one more than anyone else i know. One day someone will give you one. But....now that i move on, i leave Kirleta to you, all here halls, and her members. In someways...you have been doing double shifts whilst i have nursed myself back to health and you have done a sterling job. Nobody can deny the House is not yours, because it is. I think you will surpass me in many ways :) Leave no stone unturned, think everything through, weigh up what people have put in, and not put in, then reward them accordingly. Be firm but fair, see both sides of the coin, be confident and stick to your guns like i have, they will jump when you ask them too :) Glad to see you promoted, now Waz me old china, i hand the House to you....but please extend me the courtesy of one final report before i slip out of sight and out of mind into the Rogues. Take good care of everyone for me Waza, its your task now my old friend ;D

Master Shups ~ One of my first inspirations, and the only guy whome i could never beat in a XVT/XWA melee matches :) The day you left was a great loss to the clan, and to me personaly. Your a top bloke and a great leader and pilot, probaly the best i have ever flown against....i mean...24-1 !! You made the younger confident Azazel Djo'Tarr feel like a right rookie :) But it was a pleasure being whooped by someone like you. Atleast i can claim a few kills against you, i bet not many can. I'll miss you mate...but best wishes for the future and all the best ;)

DA Mejas ~ Hoots man!! Yer wee haggis throwing barbarian ye! Hehe....i recall the old JK1 training nights you used to put on. You also gave me my first War Cross when i beat you, Mell & Ziguarath one night. I was chuffed to bits. We used to have a right laugh on those nights, messin around, learning about lag hits from Mell, seeing if we could come up with something new, and playing follow the leader (mostly just all 3 of us chasing eachother trying to get a kill or 3). I used to call that the 'Caravan of Courage' because it looked funny. You da man at GOA's, did a grand job with mine, but i thankyou for all that you have done for me in any capacity. Your a top bloke too and a good mate. Take care and best wishes for the future ;)

OW Reza ~ Well what can i say....known you for 3 yrs now, going back to the days when we were both FM's in WingXIII on the ISDII Grey Wolf. You left once when i was a CMDR (of Vortex i think), then when you came back i was the COM. Thats when you joined Kirleta, back under my wing again. As i have with all the poeple who have put alot into the House or whatever i have commanded, i did what i could for you when i could. I can put my hand on my heart and say that i have never ever seen such raw talent in JO that i have in you, and i have been around many many servers and played many people both in FFA's, CTF etc. If anyone should get CMDR of the GMRG it should be you! Because you can wipe the floor with the lot of us. I think your only weak point (which it has always been), is your stuborness, people try and help others as i have done, but sometimes you would'nt listen and you went the opposite way. You once thought i had it in for you....i did not. I wanted to keep you to set an example for others in the house to follow and look up to. I don't hold it against for you leaving the house, your still a mate, and thats why i am pointing out your one and only flaw. Mine is probaly my short temper (infact i know it is), i do have an artistic temper, i like things to be done correctly. But you my friend are capable of so much if you only set your mind to it and do it the right way :) You know what i say is true, so now get out there and show them was Ghost Rezdar is really made of!!! Take of yourself & best wishes for the future ;)

GM Chi-Long ~ Hell i have known you for 3 yrs too....lol. We've spoke about everything from women to martial arts. Your a great bloke, despite what some people will say, maybe they don't give you enough time to get to know you me thinks. You were a great GM & DGM, and i was perplexed as to the reason why you stepped down (or maybe fired by that idiot Asstatine). But you have helped the DB peel itself away from the stagnent tiresome repatative bull of the EH. I just hope you continue to help the DB grow into a new era. I do love the new layout btw...its groovy! Please though remember to do that wee thing for the Obelisk skins i was gonna make for the DB. Mail me when the graphic pic is done for the Obelisk trooper and i will send you what i need :) Take care of yourself and your wife & best luck for the future my friend :)

GRD Brat Stone ~ Mate....i have watched over you and helped you along eversince you set foot into WingXIII, and i always promised to do the same for you in the DB. I only hope that i stayed true to my word. I know you swore that wherever i went in the DB you would follow me, as you call me your 'Master', well...my young apprentice, i cannot ask you to follow me where i am going, infact i order you not too! Kirleta need someone with your vision of change and new idea's because these will help to shape the future of this fine House. I will be checking up on you from time to time, and i want to see you a DJK in 4 months!! You know what you have to do....so do it! I know you can because i believe in you. Since the day we first met i have understood you, and i have listened to your problems both clan related and real life, as with Waza, i only hoped that in some capacity that i said something helpful. You will one day, like Reza, make a grand Qua/Aed, because your open, friendly, and approachable. Unlike me and my temper and mood swings that i have sufferd from since a child, which gives me no advantage at all in this game. But some day you will be in the spot light, and your time to shine will come, that i will promise you. I hope that i will be there to see it and share it :) As for you in real life...you have a wonderful family, a loving wife, and a bright future ahead of you. I know your problems, i know you can do it, you can make it happen. By sheer will and some support you can become what you have always wanted to be, i know you can and you will do because Az says so!!! So don't talk about it....DO IT! :D I am merely a mail away if you ever need me my friend :) I garauntee a reply within 12 hours or sooner ;) Take good care of yourself, your wife and your family, and best wishes for the future ;))

DJM Arania/the Sith one/ DJK Aishea ~ Arrgggghhh too many names!! Lol...ok lass, your a good hearted soul, but you put too much in sometimes. Seriously you need to take a step back sometimes, but don't step too far back as you'll fall over. If i could count how many times i have listend to your probs and tried to help on one hand, i don't think i could. At the end of the day you must say to yourself 'Its just a game....its not real', and believe it!! As the road to the future in life is a long one (especialy for a man), there's no need to cut it short over a clan or a web page or a peice of fiction. The ability to brush worries off is what makes us human aswell as the ability to comprimise and move on. You must be able to take a breather and also realise that what i say is true. Not everything in life is black & white, we live in colour now....take a look around sometime ;) Take good care of yourself and best wishes for the future ;)

To the House ~ Well folks, i cannot thank you all enough for the last 2 yrs (those that have been in long enough to remember me getting Qua). You have all in some capacity contributed into making this House what it is today. It took me months of kicking to finaly get the results that i was looking for, a fully working active house, one that could rival Dinaari. And as i said, this is the team to do it!! We now have some great mp'ers in the house like Bane, Arso, Nikko, all you need to do is train together and get something worked out that will be mutualy beneficial for the rest of the House. A team who can work together shares success together!! Thats what i have always tried to do with you guys. Get you working, get you talking, get you to comps, get you on mIRC etc. I only hope that you guys have a wee corner in your heads to remember me when i was in my prime during the GJW, and not when i was not here for you or when i was ill. I have had a hard time these past 2 years. But i have, like i have said, done my best for you lot. But......my parting gifts to most of you will be seen soon :) I have some rewards to hand out before i go. Not only because i have noticed that you have earned it, or the fact that you deserve it, its because i want to give you something one last time whilst i am able to do so. If i get nothing for my time and work as Qua, so be it, it is not for me to decide that, thats someone elses decision. But my decision for you guys is made up. And you'll see shortly ;) My Dark ones....esteemed and honourable members of House Kirleta, my old House and greatest hour, take care of yourselves and eachother (if you don't i'll kick yer ass) & best wishes for the future. Make me proud of you all once more ;)

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Ok...writing this is getting hard now. So many names & memories are flashing through my head right now its getting too much. People may think of me as being a bit of a hard case, a knuckle dragging thug of a skinhead from Great Britain, but i am actually a very sensative geeza even though i look like a badass and have the temper to back it up :P I actually do give a damn about you lot as i do my real life friends. Nobody knows this, but as each of you suffer, so do i. Everytime the House fell silent, i sufferd and got a verbal ticking off for it. You don't see that, but it has happend. The Qua always answers to the CON & PCON for any mistake.

Now some people say " Damn... i could be a Qua or a COM....its easy!", well i say 'is it?'. Until you have been there, you cannot comment. It's not just about rewarding medals, nor handing out promotions or writing reports. It's about knowing those with whome you command and lead, and i mean knowing them on a one to one basis, and helping them to progress and find there place. I know that when i first joined i felt alone and isolated and lost. It just takes one person to make you feel welcome and to introduce you that makes all the difference. Thats why i have always realised the importance of an RM in a House. And thats why i have always tried to also back up the RM by greeting each new member into the House. As a Qua its part of the job description to do that as a team leader. Afterall...thats all a Qua is, if this was an office, i'd be in my office working away on paper work, then get up and take a stroll in my black & white pin stripe 3 piece suit with my cream Patrick Cox loafers on and my contemparary tie on through the office, stopping at each desk for a brief chat, and now and then take someone into my office for a chat on how well your doing in the work place. Its things like that people that make a good team leader/ Qua. And i only hope that i have in some degree lived up to that mark. Atleast i hope that some of you will look back and say that i was a good Qua, always there for you and supportive :D

Well...there are no more words now, well, none that come easy anyway. Goodbye's are always the hardest to say in one breath without seeing peoples faces to remind you that we are all mortal and in life there is nothing more simplisticaly pleasing than that of a careing heart :) In this kind of enviroment, all we have are our words typed and not spoken, i hope that you guys can see that i really care about what happens to you both in the clan and in real life. Life's too short to be lonely with nobody to lean on when the going gets tuff, we all need companionship, and i thankyou from the bottom of my heart for yours :)

Parting Quote.

" A man with deep far-sightedness will survey both the beginning and the end of a situation and continually consider its every facet as important.Life is like unto a long journey with a heavy burden. Let thy step be slow and steady, that thou stumble not. Persuade thyself that imperfection and inconvenience are the natural lot of mortals, and there will be no room for discontent, neither for despair. When ambitious desires arise in thy heart, recall the days of extremity thou has passed through. Forbearance is the root of quietness and assurance forever. Look upon the wrath of the enemy. If thou knowest only what it is to conquer, and knowest not what it is to be defeated, woe unto thee; it will fare ill with thee. Find fault with thyself rather than with others."

Remember me as i once was and exist to become

Chin-Chin

OBL Azazel Djo'Tarr (Obelisk)/QUA/Kirleta of Satal Keto.

SB/(SC)/(SE-WG)/DC/(BN) {SA:G:LS-S:ISET} {KT}

"Regere Sanguine Regere In Veritatem Est"

My moto (Family):- To rule by blood is to rule by truth

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