Your light will shine on

Good evening CSP members. Some of you might have noticed my MIA for the last week. Xen was in the loop as to my absence and now that I am finally to myself sitting in an airport awaiting my layover, I am using this report as a bit of therapeutic relief if you would. Normally this isn't something I would share, but due to him being a long standing member of this Clan and the DJB, it only seemed the right thing to do. Last week my real life Brother as many in the Clan know as "Jacob Van Nowak" here in the CSP was killed in an accident.

I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that it is real. For years we worked down the road together in the military, even maintained a deployment together, gamed together, and anything that brothers would do. As many of you know I tend to clown a lot, and sometimes a bit much. He was the opposite to most of my actions. He was the older wiser one who could "tame" the craziness when I would push it to far and bring me back to reality. His presence at many of the life events that I would miss for my own family when I could not be there due to my own career commitments, and deployments at these times.

His career throughout the DJB spanned before the exodus. He was known in the EH, TC, DB, and even here. Most of his recent time was spent focusing on RL work and a little less on the DJB, but he was here for CSP when we needed him. Without his guidance I would have never found any of these groups and made the lasting friendships in the DJB that I have with like minded Star Wars lovers.

Closing

Life is very short. I have always known this to be true. I have witnessed it first hand, and the news as of late is always showing us how tragic it can be. You just never expect it to hit this close to home and when someone has so much life to live. I know many others have experienced it and I mourn with you. Let us remember my brother for the good person he was. My life's perspective has changed so much more from this. As always Scholae, go forth and do great things. I love you and will always miss you Brother. Tonight we drink one for Jacob.

-Cruise