Meditation: THOUGHTS BROKEN, that’s the only thing that came into her mind…But how? “Jedi are not suppose to be like that” a voice inside of her said.. Why??? Oh,she definitely knew why….And that’s when tears filled her brown eyes..She couldn’t hold it anymore,Zeline covered her eyes,sat down because she had no strength and started crying…If anybody could see her right now,they would think she was mourning a beloved one…But that wasn’t far from her reality..At a later time when her eyes turned red because of crying she thought: Meditation is that the medication?
Zeline Nemesis was a Jedi,she had to reorganize herself and exceed that situation.For her,meditation works only if she closes her eyes ,takes a deep breath and rub her belly,she was pregnant at the time and it should be kept as a secret from everyone including the Force. Zeline had to focus on her thoughts but that was what scared her the most,because by thinking and clearing her mind even if she could realize the situation better,the bad facts still were remaining facts.Although she could analyze them,step by step try to understand why is this happening and what to expect,so when the final result would come,to be able to deal with it.Her thoughts wouldn’t leave her alone not even for a minute. Zeline Nemesis wanted to scream to stop it but she couldn’t..Only choice she had,was to focus on the future.Hope guides her,this is what its takes her through the day and especially the night..With meditation everyone can understand itself better..First she tried not to think of anything, then she organized her thoughts according to the time that everything happened and by pretending she was someone else not related to the situation she tried to solve it,so she would be objective…If not anything could be solved,she would try to focus on the AFTER time…BUT so many questions with no answers from the person she cared about,no way to reach him,his absence made it seem like he didn’t exist in real life,even if she was sleeping and waking up with him on her mind..Therefore,even if she had the willing to solve the situation or find out the truth,how would she solve the problem if the answers weren’t possible to come from her but only from him?At that moment she reminded to herself that everything has to do with balance in meditation,embrace the good emotions but not go that deep into feelings and lose control… While doing meditation at the same time you are letting yourself free,you control everything that has to do with evil bad and negativity and try to stick with the Jedi Code … “Never leave the light path” a friend said in the past but Zeline Nemesis already knew that falling in LOVE for a Jedi is a dangerous trap.. And that has to do not only with emotions you can’t control but with the fear of being betrayed by the person you love and become literally broken,that can turn you into the evil path..It wasn’t a secret anymore she struggled,she suffered, she felt betrayed, that was more than she could ever handle.When he disappeared everything happened so fast for no apparent reason and the explanation she received after pursuing it,didn’t match with the facts she had seen… Yes,meditation may helps when she tried to cope with the situation but in the area that she suffered only that person could actually save her by telling her the truth…Waiting endless days,counted every minute,every second but meditation didn’t really help her because the facts and her reality were harsh .She didn’t want to be betrayed,who does? She didn’t want to live in a lie or hear lies again..The baby inside her belly kicked her again,that made her come back to reality and deal with the struggle for her lost love or waiting to find out if her beloved one was actually being captive..? Meditation: Does it really help or we make ourselves believe that it helps,until the situation is being solved on it’s own,so we won’t have any more thoughts to analyze..? But a fact for real: In meditation beautiful things will happen if you distance yourself from negativity .Inside her mind all these occurred in silence…Besides meditation has to do in some type of way with SILENCE!!! P.S I don't know how to upload a music video from youtube so it's: How far i'll go-Moana!! But the lyrics define me and i love the music too♡♡♡ "so come find me and let me know what's beyond that line....no one knows How far it goes.."

“The Great Jedi War is finally over!” ”What a great victory for my Clan” Zeline Nemesis thought.Of course it was a great team work and needed a lot of effort from everybody within the Odan-Urr!!! She could still remember her Master’s words in her ears to become better and better,otherwise victory won’t come. But after so much fighting and mental effort a good time off to rest her body and her soul was exactly what she needed.. “Maybe a little bit of time to sacrifice in meditation isn’t a bad thing for recovery” another voice inside her mind said.And while she was making plans about her life and how to spend her time off,all sudden everything changed…She definitely needed vacation to get away from her issues after the War,you can only imagine how bad she would need vacation afterwards since her “demons” returned.It was a regular day for Zeline when she received first the good news,that she earned her first Dark Cross,the GJW seal,her new robe and on the top of that she got promoted to a Padawan!Two hours later she found a note that her beloved one probably was being captive or just disappeared for no apparent reason.That situation without a warning,without further details or a way to receive more information about the case “teared” her “up”.She had to do something drastically she felt,to resolve it but no good plans or tools to utilize were available in this weird situation.Zeline Nemesis to take out of her system all of her anger and stress went to her room and grabbed her lightsaber..It’s blue light reflected on her dark brown eyes and made them sparkle!That was the beginning,she started training as fastest she could,as hardest she could..Every position difficult for her body to maintain balance she tried it,while she was holding her lightsaber.But she didn’t want to sit down and do nothing about the situation..When it comes to help,care and protect people she is the one! Zeline placed down her lightsaber,left the room and started running…She run and run with all the strength she had,until she couldn’t breathe anymore.She almost fell and sat down..Her brown sweet eyes were sparkling but this time wasn’t from the reflection of her lightsaber but from the wetness because of tears..Poor Zeline nobody should let their feelings to “conquer” them especially Jedis..But when you actually love somebody how can you be able to control such a strong feeling?She was already inside the trap by falling in Love with him..A forbidden for Jedis situation because they should stick with balance.Time for meditation?Time for training or earning more knowledge as she did?Time for vacation and distract herself from the real situation? Honestly,nothing really helped..Zeline Nemesis never felt more helpless in her entire life..Should she ask the help of her Clan or take this battle on her own? All these thoughts in her mind.. Another voice in her mind said: “Patience,just be a little more patient and everything will come up to light” She tried to think what relaxes her and she thought maybe she should write some poems for him since the War was over and had plenty of time..Oh,she missed him,she dearly and sincerely missed him..And what’s left in the END? Only Hope.. P.S the song that came into my mind as soon as i put the last dot on my text is: Only Hope by Mandy Moore from a walk to remember one of my favourite movies but i don't know how to upload it!

Sorry for my English I'm from Greece. I post twice in case.

As a small shuttle transport landed onto the damaged ship Proxia Mustirion Zeline Nemesis knew the rescue mission would be hard. Many suicide ships had hit the ship and caused many losses of life and all seemed hopeless. Dropping in the Odan-urr ship she began to search out for signs of people who may still be alive. As she began running through the ship she saw many hurt people. Also she saw big pieces of metal and debris with fire on them from the ship ceiling that were falling all over the place...it was like fireballs crossing through her head...the temperature was getting higher and higher...she could barely breathe from the smoke and it was hard to see as well even stuff that was right in front of her...all she was thinking was how to stay alive and rescue as many people as she could. She didn't want to stay alive for herself but for them...she was thinking within seconds that we have to make it...it is so unfair to die like that...they had so many dreams and a life to live.. Zeline kept walking as fast as she could. But it was hard...my arms could feel the burn of the fires and she could smell the dead flesh on bodies around but that didn't make her stop...she had to go to the second floor where the screaming’s where coming through but she had to make it through the stairs first. Zeline was getting disappointed because it was hard to keep her eyes open from all the smoke and fire was all over the place, it was getting worse... she took a deep breath and then covered half of her face with a small wet towel she had with her then took a deep breath and began running with the last courage that she had. She could barely see the stairs but it was close now...ten more steps and she made it....that's all she was thinking. And finally Zeline MADE IT! Zeline started walking upstairs. But on the way, she almost slipped so she grabbed the rail...Damn it was burning as hell because it was from steel...Ugh!! So painful but she thought she had to keep going......A few minutes later she was there. Finally on the second floor. The voices and the screaming were getting louder and louder...The words were loud and clear now...HELP HELP.WE NEED SOMEBODY TO SAVE US. I yelled with all the strength I got. I am coming...I am right here...I will save you... At the end of that small hall was a room, people were in there still alive...but she couldn't approach them...she just realized it.That's why they couldn't come out and they were seeking for help...There was between their door and the hall a big metallic door on the ground on fire which she realized it was the not too hot for her to jump through.....Zeline got scared that she ran all the way there for nothing.. She thought I freeze!!! Though she had to think...Her mind was stuck.... Think Zeline you can do this, think....she said to herself... she couldn't see anything around to help herself and the people. So she said to herself. This is what you are, this is what defines you...You are a Jedi Zeline! "All she had to do was to remind to herself the last words of my mother... she ran...she ran so hard with all her speed and jumped over it....I was in the room finally. She saw two women there and immediately grabbed them and told them to trust her. As she held the hands they all ran through the fire. In that moment after making it alive, she showed the direction to the escape pods and they all ran quickly towards it. When they got there they all got on without injury and left the ship before it exploded. All were safe for now.